Truly caring about someone is such a simple thing. So simple, in fact, that its almost anti-climactic.
Growing up as a girl my sister and I would often chat about what we expected love to feel like, the type of guy we thought we'd end up with, and what we wanted out of relationships. During one of these conversations she told me that she wanted her relationship to be filled with passion. Not just the physical kind, but where you get into crazy fights with each other where you yell and throw things. I can definitely see her point. You know, being so crazy in love with someone that it actually, in fact, creates some insane eternal heat and tension between people.
Truth be told I didn't know what I wanted at the time of that conversation. At the very least I can tell you it wasn't quite what my sister had envisioned but I had definitely expected something different than what I got.
For me, it was peaceful. Something just clicked, and that was it. No explaining, no justifying. It was just secure, like it was meant to be like that the whole time.
I suppose there has always been some type of intuition. Its always been like that though, most people generally don't last past the second date. I ignored my intuition once, during a weak point in my life and can safely say that I have learned my lesson.
I am very glad to remember what it feels like to care about someone again. Where you don't care what it is that you do for them because whatever it is, you want to do it and expect nothing in return. Where there are still butterflies and anticipation. And most importantly, where you actually feel something click. Even if you're not certain what it will become...something is just there, and you can't quite put your finger on it. Its just...well, the way its supposed to be.
Caring about someone shouldn't ever be complicated. Its easy because it makes sense intuitively. It will be natural, easy and ultimately, very peaceful. If its not, its not meant to be.
I just wanted to be around the one I loved. If I experienced something without him I always wanted to share it with him.
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